Jakarta's Morning in The Middle of Exam

Cikembang

I'm bringing potatos

After Fasting Celebration, Found Something In Other Action

caring friends, caring enemies, caring strangers, caring people.
i found that actually people are just people for that we should be caring for.
tho i hate being 'sok sok baik dan basa basi' in front of people, i found sometimes we need that.
so care others like you care yourself then you'll be cared, definately

Live Long and Prosper

Certainly

I Found One Interesting Stuff

I Am Bored

I am Bold but Bored
I Hold the hours to get it Sold
I am the Lord who has the Gold for the Old
But then i remember that I am just a Bold Lord who got extremely Bored

and the Lord didnt give the Gold for the Old

The Life of the Waves

The Life of The Waves

by Unknown Artist

Greetings people..
For 2 months i was absent writing my blog because the hectic final exam time was totally killing me. However, finally, i graduated with a nice score, above my expectation :D

So, yes, life definitely goes upside down. like those waves up there, love this picture totally. I agree that life is a total black, we never know what will come up the next second. Present seems unexpected, and past is so blurry that you could hardly see. Yes, we're rolling upside down and there they are between the two, you call it happiness just like froth, sparks and disappears, slowly but sure.

INDONESIA VS MALAYSIA

We're so clueless of what we have until we finally realized that it's ours that they took. However, these are some stupid sites, and definitely not helping us to get back what we've lost.

http://nevervisitmalaysia.multiply.com/

http://malaysia-malingsial.blogspot.com/

http://www.malingsia.com/about-malingsiacom/

Oh please use some strategies that at least last for min. 20 years from now, why should we spend money to send our military if protect and take a good care of our people we can't do?

I frankly not agree with Prabowo who wants to attack Malaysia, still our poeple go there to study and work, if we don't have our people in that shitty country then send your rudal or else.. so anyway, com'on what's with the rush and madness? Those media and press are just fooling you all around, lol. Making war is definitely not a good strategy, we don't have that much money. If we have, why more than 50% of our people are POOR?

So anyway, the point here is just don't make any harsh statement that only makes us more like those bastards. We are smarter than that and better we make a good living from what we have. crack em from inside not ouside that's how we'll repay em.

Crank 2: High Fuckin Voltage

Movie I laughed for the whooole fuckin day. Yesterday was definately a stupid day for me and the rest, as it is only the 3 junk people who had no idea of what they should fuckin do. Me, poli, and kassy ate fuckin junk food watch fuckin junk movie, and nearly fuckin went mad. Haha I guess you're probably fuckin wondering why do I type so many fuckin words. haha better better watch that fuckin movie to know the answer. That movie is so fuckin gak jelas yet so fuckin funny hahaha totally brilliant fuckin movie. Lol. i also wonder how come the movie could pass the sensor regulation , haha ah no no i guess the movie would be a half an hour movie because all the rest would be sensored hahaha no you could not do fuckin sensored this time. it's a wrap badasss Chev Chel-fuckin-ios dude

An Inspiration Person is A True One in His Passion

let me tell you something about a teacher that i adore..

based on my being taught experience i was so perplexed when i see his unique face
a humble face i would not forget and an old type of face that really go with grandpa's face, (he has a pair of nice warm eyes, shiny brown skin, and silky white hair that makes him so wise) and hey i guess he looks like Gandalf if he's a white haha
anyway i don't know why i got this idea to write about him, but i guess it's worth as his kindness and true-ness of his passion really got me hypnotized..

Mr. Tolok is one of my teachers at home, he teach me and my brother for physics and math. He's in his seventies now so ofcourse a question surely pop up in my head : hey hey how could he possibly remember those formulas in his age?

what's more adorable is that he teaches us with his true teaching's style, i mean he really into his passion that i believe he's not a person who would ask something for what he has done in return. i'm sure that there're only view teachers in jakarta who would do such a thing. money matter is the real issue right? and not blamin any teachers who work for money, because yes everyone does it as money is the entity of our existency in this world, true?

Eventhough Mr. Tolok is being paid for teaching us, he teaches me as if i am someone who really need math! and so one day he promised me that he'll be back for an answer for 'bangun ruang' question and he really did it! he figured out the question hisself and gave me the answer even though i didn't 'les' with him that day, dont you think it's sweet....

actually it's not that special if somone does it, it's special because it's him.
and why is it so special? it's because i can feel that he's so honest and true in everything he does.
i guess that makes him so different than any other teachers
it's not what he does that makes him special it's how he does it that makes him one.

And since that day he's one of my inspiration.. on the go:

mr. tolok

Why Teenage Smoke?

Even At The Worst The Best Isn't That Far

Last Tuesday was somewhat odd for me. I usually failed to bring any tissue to school but that day i did. Suddenly, i realized that the tissue i brought was not exactly for me but accidentally it was for my friend Priska who cried over my dearest friend Yurike who passed away that day.

Yurike:
Even though i'm not her closest friend and havent got time to know her better i remembered that we came accross at the canteen on friday and she said hi to me. And that's how i remembered her as the others too. Always nice and charming. rest in peace my friend.

Priska: Then I realized that sometimes, something happen as they are seems supposed to happen, and before that we don't know why those things happen yet knowing the reason only when it's all over.

Just like the tissue that i brought on tuesday.
i didn't know why i brought that for, for i always failed to remember before.
But that day, strangely it was, i did brought it.
And that's how all things are connected and..
Tissue is just one of the pretty lesson, that everything happens for a reason (as people said so)
for it applies to everything, even to death.
So let's pronounce 'God's plan is the best'

Heavy Talk II

no faith is more certain than the present time pal..

yes now I'm continuing my heavy talk

i've been thinking for days that sometimes people have to take a stupid choice first before realizing that their choice is simply stupid

yet somehow-sometimes the stupid choice is necessary to emphasize illogical things oh yes spell it out F-E-E-L-I-N-G-S, good.

and gladly glad for me, my stupid choice is succeed in emphasizing the feeling that i should have had before, oddly even it's not hard to predict what comes next in my life, the one that is extremely hard to be predicted is my own feelings

which took me in regret

is it because im using less my heart than my minute brain?

which took me in a nicely and slowly love motion and yes :
forever is somewhat last that lasting slowly and every ever that doesn't end

okay i guess it's much of sensitive to talk things like these.

thankful for the faith because its certainty is only at present time

(yes So, i'm much seduced right now)

Forever Is Somewhat Last That Lasting Slowly And Every Ever That Doesn't End

Villain, Victim, Lover

"The spanish languange is the most honest in regard to conventional notions of love : Te quiero means 'i want you' as well as 'i love you'. the other expressions for 'i love you', te amo, which does not have this ambiguity, is rarely used -perhaps because true love is just rare"-E.T

All Time Food

+

=

ADDICTION

The Blue Girl And The All Color Boy (A Story Behind Marc Chagall Paintings)

In a faraway land of blue, where all human's mood are easily viewed, lives a Jolly man who's seeking nothing but to share his joy with. His bright mood are the prime colors of a rainbow. Red shows that he's always excited and warm all time along, Green shows that he always try to be positive in thoughts, and yellow shows that his life is cheerful and bright just like a sunny sun in a sunny day can be.

However, there's nothing called a sunny day in the land of blue. And so, it's easier to have a feeling-blue feeling rather than the otherwise. So meanwhile, there's this blue girl whose mood is as blue as the deepest ocean but as flat as the surface of water. No one expect that something would occur at that time, because in fact they live in a 2 different world yet live on the same land. Despite all those facts, something did occur and led one story to another, making a slightly unusual link and created an artificial beauty in the artificial life.

So to make the story short, the jolly man heard a click in his heart that finally he found someone to share his joy with, share his colors joy. Yet the blue girl , hoping those colors always flow in a good way in her. As the time goes by it's been a decade that they've filled each other world. In hope, good feelings is always on their side and of course in an equilibrium state.

So that's how the color's and their relationship work. One flows to the other trying to fill the other missing colors just like puzzle.

The Grey Boat

The Grey Boat is an unusual tools to express emotion. An unpleasant feeling for a rare equilibrium state. A beautiful thing to see in any dusk and dawn because its color reflects neither too dark nor too bright. Colors has collided into somewhat plain and pale to see. However, sometimes what's so pale and plain is more hazardous than anything could be.

Grey, keeps your eyes warm and seduce you to stay in place.

What i believe in this Grey Boat is the potential ability to carry compulsive problems and feelings. Somehow magically, you'll see something beyond reality that the small and inproper boat could be so balance at one time. Align with the water.

*******

On the water, a dust comes in and stay for a while. The dust see that the boat is somewhat wrong and somehow nice. " i wish i could stay longer but i feel that i must leave" says the dust. The dust feels that the boat is sinking yet the moist air keeps him around, seducing the dust to stay longer stay forever. Then a bird comes into the scene, flying around and staring at the Grey Boat and says " i wish i could be around here longer, but too sad to see what's so beautiful sinking that fast " then leave with a painful heart.

After a while the Grey Boat has absorbed water more than its ability. But the dust still insists to stay.

The water suddenly talks with a soft voice "7060870608706087060870608706087060870608"

A sudden wet! That, turned the boat into a catastrophe, so dark and cruel. Sadly, no one insists to stay any longer to bear the pain. however the water could only move nowhere, because its astounded feeling is longing only for the Grey Boat. However, the dust might leave in any second because The Grey Boat is expanding trison and cruelty.

That's how all collapse :
Happiness leaves as soon as it came in.
Sadness always has it own way to its victory.
Love is just another word of tired.
Losing may be the only way to feel love.

No one wish for this sad ending. for what it's worth ; waiting a miracle is never too late though it may only comes in the last minute of your death when all has collapsed and wet. So, when everything is in the edge of fears :
Though the dust might leave in any second, yet the water is still stuck and sucks.
Suddenly a blue girl, comes from the land of blue, get into the scene to take, dry, keep, and save The Grey Boat forever, deep under her hundreds memories.

somethin are better left unsaid

no good to be overly joy
no good to be overly sad
no good to ruin what you already have

no good to say that somethin are better left unsaid
no! i just said that..