Villain, Victim, Lover

"The spanish languange is the most honest in regard to conventional notions of love : Te quiero means 'i want you' as well as 'i love you'. the other expressions for 'i love you', te amo, which does not have this ambiguity, is rarely used -perhaps because true love is just rare"-E.T

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The Blue Girl And The All Color Boy (A Story Behind Marc Chagall Paintings)

In a faraway land of blue, where all human's mood are easily viewed, lives a Jolly man who's seeking nothing but to share his joy with. His bright mood are the prime colors of a rainbow. Red shows that he's always excited and warm all time along, Green shows that he always try to be positive in thoughts, and yellow shows that his life is cheerful and bright just like a sunny sun in a sunny day can be.

However, there's nothing called a sunny day in the land of blue. And so, it's easier to have a feeling-blue feeling rather than the otherwise. So meanwhile, there's this blue girl whose mood is as blue as the deepest ocean but as flat as the surface of water. No one expect that something would occur at that time, because in fact they live in a 2 different world yet live on the same land. Despite all those facts, something did occur and led one story to another, making a slightly unusual link and created an artificial beauty in the artificial life.

So to make the story short, the jolly man heard a click in his heart that finally he found someone to share his joy with, share his colors joy. Yet the blue girl , hoping those colors always flow in a good way in her. As the time goes by it's been a decade that they've filled each other world. In hope, good feelings is always on their side and of course in an equilibrium state.

So that's how the color's and their relationship work. One flows to the other trying to fill the other missing colors just like puzzle.

The Grey Boat

The Grey Boat is an unusual tools to express emotion. An unpleasant feeling for a rare equilibrium state. A beautiful thing to see in any dusk and dawn because its color reflects neither too dark nor too bright. Colors has collided into somewhat plain and pale to see. However, sometimes what's so pale and plain is more hazardous than anything could be.

Grey, keeps your eyes warm and seduce you to stay in place.

What i believe in this Grey Boat is the potential ability to carry compulsive problems and feelings. Somehow magically, you'll see something beyond reality that the small and inproper boat could be so balance at one time. Align with the water.

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On the water, a dust comes in and stay for a while. The dust see that the boat is somewhat wrong and somehow nice. " i wish i could stay longer but i feel that i must leave" says the dust. The dust feels that the boat is sinking yet the moist air keeps him around, seducing the dust to stay longer stay forever. Then a bird comes into the scene, flying around and staring at the Grey Boat and says " i wish i could be around here longer, but too sad to see what's so beautiful sinking that fast " then leave with a painful heart.

After a while the Grey Boat has absorbed water more than its ability. But the dust still insists to stay.

The water suddenly talks with a soft voice "7060870608706087060870608706087060870608"

A sudden wet! That, turned the boat into a catastrophe, so dark and cruel. Sadly, no one insists to stay any longer to bear the pain. however the water could only move nowhere, because its astounded feeling is longing only for the Grey Boat. However, the dust might leave in any second because The Grey Boat is expanding trison and cruelty.

That's how all collapse :
Happiness leaves as soon as it came in.
Sadness always has it own way to its victory.
Love is just another word of tired.
Losing may be the only way to feel love.

No one wish for this sad ending. for what it's worth ; waiting a miracle is never too late though it may only comes in the last minute of your death when all has collapsed and wet. So, when everything is in the edge of fears :
Though the dust might leave in any second, yet the water is still stuck and sucks.
Suddenly a blue girl, comes from the land of blue, get into the scene to take, dry, keep, and save The Grey Boat forever, deep under her hundreds memories.

somethin are better left unsaid

no good to be overly joy
no good to be overly sad
no good to ruin what you already have

no good to say that somethin are better left unsaid
no! i just said that..

Mean Girl

okay okay but i can't help for this one... i was peekin on a blog of someone when i realized that this one is a pretty good faker but hey you don't lie and you can't fake yourself in front of me, why dont you be a nice one instead? well anyway to be honest each of us is a fake and the only thing is not fake is god, but anyway this faking one got me like.. SINCE WHEN..? hmm i hope the faking one realized that i know that the faking one isn't the one who i saw on the blog..

Heavy Talk I

i began this morning with went out to school and unfortunately the flood (as usual) was everywhere that i couldn't go in. of course whoever see that kind of flood will give a yucky mimic. anyway, writing again to put my head's content is one of the best way to get rid headache from my head. i've been thinking these view days about human's mood and feelings.

Feelings are very complicated to be frankly honest. don't you think it's hard to conclude a state of happiness? when you have a happy feeling don't you also feel that the insecure feeling is also getting bigger underneath all of your happiness? well I'm no sure about those feeling stuff that's why I'm taking no risk about having those kind of things.. and those two questions about feelings led one thing to another that i thought was similar : a feeling that you think is similar with happiness yet to be truthfully truth it's not. IN LOVE, heard that befo?

i guess no one can doubt that to be in love means in a state of happy. but i rethought about it because i have something in mind more than that. it's okay to disagree peop but this stuff is a heavy talk. let's start with this statement: In love is everything. i read that sentence once in yore somewhere and that statement does stick on me.

i agree that happiness is just one fourth content of being in love. the others three fourth are heavier than that.
In love is complexing your feelings with some other feelings that is more complex than the geometry numbers haha.
in love is experiencing the most extreme feelings, yes?
in love is something that you're not aware of until something big happens and ruin everything.
in other words i agree that you don't know what you got till it's gone.
then you'll know whether you're in love or not in love.

okay enough for the heavy talk part one, i guess i'll add some more if later i have somethin pop up on my mind..