An Inspiration Person is A True One in His Passion

let me tell you something about a teacher that i adore..

based on my being taught experience i was so perplexed when i see his unique face
a humble face i would not forget and an old type of face that really go with grandpa's face, (he has a pair of nice warm eyes, shiny brown skin, and silky white hair that makes him so wise) and hey i guess he looks like Gandalf if he's a white haha
anyway i don't know why i got this idea to write about him, but i guess it's worth as his kindness and true-ness of his passion really got me hypnotized..

Mr. Tolok is one of my teachers at home, he teach me and my brother for physics and math. He's in his seventies now so ofcourse a question surely pop up in my head : hey hey how could he possibly remember those formulas in his age?

what's more adorable is that he teaches us with his true teaching's style, i mean he really into his passion that i believe he's not a person who would ask something for what he has done in return. i'm sure that there're only view teachers in jakarta who would do such a thing. money matter is the real issue right? and not blamin any teachers who work for money, because yes everyone does it as money is the entity of our existency in this world, true?

Eventhough Mr. Tolok is being paid for teaching us, he teaches me as if i am someone who really need math! and so one day he promised me that he'll be back for an answer for 'bangun ruang' question and he really did it! he figured out the question hisself and gave me the answer even though i didn't 'les' with him that day, dont you think it's sweet....

actually it's not that special if somone does it, it's special because it's him.
and why is it so special? it's because i can feel that he's so honest and true in everything he does.
i guess that makes him so different than any other teachers
it's not what he does that makes him special it's how he does it that makes him one.

And since that day he's one of my inspiration.. on the go:

mr. tolok

Why Teenage Smoke?

Even At The Worst The Best Isn't That Far

Last Tuesday was somewhat odd for me. I usually failed to bring any tissue to school but that day i did. Suddenly, i realized that the tissue i brought was not exactly for me but accidentally it was for my friend Priska who cried over my dearest friend Yurike who passed away that day.

Yurike:
Even though i'm not her closest friend and havent got time to know her better i remembered that we came accross at the canteen on friday and she said hi to me. And that's how i remembered her as the others too. Always nice and charming. rest in peace my friend.

Priska: Then I realized that sometimes, something happen as they are seems supposed to happen, and before that we don't know why those things happen yet knowing the reason only when it's all over.

Just like the tissue that i brought on tuesday.
i didn't know why i brought that for, for i always failed to remember before.
But that day, strangely it was, i did brought it.
And that's how all things are connected and..
Tissue is just one of the pretty lesson, that everything happens for a reason (as people said so)
for it applies to everything, even to death.
So let's pronounce 'God's plan is the best'

Heavy Talk II

no faith is more certain than the present time pal..

yes now I'm continuing my heavy talk

i've been thinking for days that sometimes people have to take a stupid choice first before realizing that their choice is simply stupid

yet somehow-sometimes the stupid choice is necessary to emphasize illogical things oh yes spell it out F-E-E-L-I-N-G-S, good.

and gladly glad for me, my stupid choice is succeed in emphasizing the feeling that i should have had before, oddly even it's not hard to predict what comes next in my life, the one that is extremely hard to be predicted is my own feelings

which took me in regret

is it because im using less my heart than my minute brain?

which took me in a nicely and slowly love motion and yes :
forever is somewhat last that lasting slowly and every ever that doesn't end

okay i guess it's much of sensitive to talk things like these.

thankful for the faith because its certainty is only at present time

(yes So, i'm much seduced right now)

Forever Is Somewhat Last That Lasting Slowly And Every Ever That Doesn't End